Why Do I Do What I Don’t Want to Do?


I don’t know about you, but I get so frustrated with my human condition.  It seems like every time I move forward in my areas of struggles, I take five steps back.  Life is hard and it often feels like God wants us to struggle through.  It is easy to feel like God does not care or has forgotten about us.

I am not sure why, but our God is quiet a lot.  He does show up, but it seems like He waits until the last minute to come through.  This makes us nervous and very uncomfortable.  It is easy to determine that God must not love us when we focus on our constant battles.

First, I want to tell you that you are not alone and that every human being on earth is facing constant struggles.  It seems that we all have weaknesses and we tend to battle the same issues over and over.  This is beyond annoying; it is often devastating.

But remember this – Even the Apostle Paul (who was a “super Christian”) said this, “I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate (Romans 7:15).”  This my friend is not your struggle; this is every human’s struggle!

Second, I want to tell you the answer.  The Apostle Paul ends this passage with this, What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord (Romans 7:24-25).”  

Christians have a great hope and that is that one day all our suffering will be over when we die; but what do we do in the meantime?  We fight for our right to be whole!  Being whole is a Christian’s right because Jesus took all our sin and sickness on the cross.  This is hard to believe when we still struggle with sin and sickness daily.

Thirdly, I want to tell you to take heart and have faith.  I know that this is easier said than done when you are in the midst of a storm, but what choice do we have?  When I am down on myself and my life, I read this verse over and over:

“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns (Philippians 1:6).”  I believe that God is not done with me even when I have fallen flat on my face, continue to make poor decisions, do what I hate, and continually avoid what I know is right.

I often feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.  I know what is right and often I know how to get out of messes, but I just don’t have the strength to do it.  Perhaps this is right where God wants me.  Perhaps this when I stop trying to overcome my struggles on my own, but really begin to seek the one who redeems all things.

Lastly, I want to tell you how to seek the redeemer.  When we are stuck between a rock and a hard place, it is our human tendency to panic and try and maneuver our way out in whatever ways we can think of.  We don’t care if we cause further destruction to ourselves or others because we are afraid and we have one goal and that is to get free.

The problem is that we don’t get free; we only further hurt ourselves and others.  What if we stared our situation straight in the eyes, accepted the pain, and let go of the fear?  What if we accepted that we are “stuck,” stopped trying to fight our way out, and began to trust with all our hearts that our redeemer will get us out of this mess in His perfect timing?

What?  Accept struggle?  Yes, that is what I am suggesting to both you and myself.  I am not sure why, but when God is silent, it is because He is attempting to teach you and I unconditional trust.  What if we fought for wholeness by doing nothing but calling out to God to come through for us?

I believe it; He is not finished with me yet and He is not finished with you yet either.  His will is that we learn to trust Him more than we trust ourselves, others, or our circumstances and be able to peacefully sleep during the roughest storms of life.

The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still. -Exodus 14:14 

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